Thanksgiving.

Things I'm thankful for:

1. My brother, my sister-in-law, and my niece and the roof they've provided me.
2. My friends, without whom the last six months would have killed me.
3. The snow currently falling and the breath I can see in front of me.
4. My relative youth.

Things I'm not thankful for:

1. My absence in my city.
2. The constant struggle.
3. This empty spot in my heart that used to be full.

The holidays have always made me sad.  I guess I'm a seasonal depressive.  I don't know exactly why...perhaps it's because my family life has never been particularly strong.  I love spring and fall though.  I'll smile again then.  I promise to make a humorous thankful list later.

This year one person in particular is missing.  

You'll never read this.  But I miss you.